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My Small Apartment -- No-stalgia 
10th-Sep-2011 10:54 pm
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I woke up this morning feeling very nostalgic for an apartment in which I used to live. It was a really small apartment. I lived there for awhile with eyelid and before that with _xis. I have very distinct memories of this place. All of these memories are very happy. This morning's memory was being there with eyelid.

This is the apartment layout.

As you can see, it is very small. As you can also see, there is a large grayed out area of the apartment. It is left blank since I have never seen that part of the apartment.

In all of my memories of this place, I am sitting at the table next to Scoot or eyelid or _xis, laughing and talking, while one of us is cooking at the stove. Now, it's fair to point out here that the last sentence probably wasn't interpreted as intended because of basic assumptions about how things work. At no time in these memories were there more than two people in the apartment, yet there were two people at the table. One of whom was also at the stove cooking. Simultaneously.

You see, this apartment does not exist. I have been dreaming these memories for more than fifteen years. Every time that I remember this place, I spend the next several waking hours trying to be sure there really was no such place. The memories are so happy and so real and so temporally impossible and so spatially paradoxical.

A recurring dream. Of happy memories. With dear friends.

Comments 
11th-Sep-2011 08:05 pm (UTC)
I've had several dreams that have taken me years to parse out whether they had actually happened or not.

My dreams are basically of three types:
-I'm at my old job, as a visitor of a volunteer, they are doing everything wrong and I know how to fix it, but I'm not allowed to fix it because I'm not qualified. (Sort of sums up my life at the job, actually.)

-I'm back at my Bible college, where they're making an exception for me to attend as an out gay man, with some sort of stipulation along the lines of I can't date til after I graduate or some such.

-The Borg are trying to assimilate Voyager.

Yeah, every night, it's pretty much one of those three.
12th-Sep-2011 06:10 pm (UTC)
so many fond memories there! ...at least apparently there are.

I'm not sure why you don't do that thing where you're sitting next to me while also in the kitchen making dinner more often. that sounds like a great idea.
13th-Sep-2011 01:26 am (UTC)
I have a town I have had dream of since I was about 13. In the dreams I wake up on the same place, on the same road. If I wish I can go visit old dreams and have them again or I can go to new places in town and have new dreams which I can then visit.

I can draw a full map of the town with the correlating dreams and I know the places I have not gone to yet. I have a feeling when I know everything about the town, it will be time to go.



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